Day 5: Late Blog Away from Work:

Painted on Monday, May 11th, but didn't do the blog until today, May 13th. I felt like I forced it that day. I'm not the kind of person that can paint through a lot of emotional stress. This is just such a huge, packed week for me and for little family.

Brought Mecca with me to the gallery to paint. She did much, much better than I did. She went for it and looked good.

It occurred to me how she does everything so naturally. Right now, reasons to avoid doing things do not exist for her. There is only reason to go for it. I've learned (more like confirmed)from observing Mecca early on that Desire is a bigger impetus to act than fear. Most of her learning from birth has to do with desire. Learning how to walk was not an exercise in fear. It was an exercise in desire. The desire to explore the world around her.

I've learned so much about being human from being a mother. More on this later. Right now, it's time to let the painting breathe. I have to find its soul later.